Better A Broken Jade, Than To Live A Life Of Clay

2009-11-20T11:01:00.004+08:00

"Dare-change."

I have shifted to Tumblr. Sorry Blogger.

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2009-11-17T04:18:00.007+08:00

"Love Trusts A Poem" - Nabil

Why does your heart grow doubtful dear?

Don’t ever feel scared, lose faith thus build up fear.

You can keep with you my everlasting love

For you, my angel, which God sent from above.

You will always be my One and Only, whom I know that I must,

Share my love, my life as well as my trust.

If I have to go through those Napoleonic wars,

To give you my heart, I would. But would I have yours?

We started out as strangers and then as friends,

To each other, for one another, till the end.

Our love was like Rome; it wasn’t built in a day.

And that makes it so very special in many many many ways.

I'll forever love you till the end of time,

Guilty as charged, if loving you was a crime.

Im sorry for all the things that caused us to be apart,

But baby please, trust me with your heart.

♥♥♥♥♥

(Created on 171109@0300H)

2009-10-27T12:08:00.004+08:00

"Far, a long way to run."

I feeling fucked up. Tired, disappointed, broken hearted, lost, lonely many words to describe my feelings not NOW NOW but more like of late. I've grown never to jump into things too fast, be it a relationship or not. And seriously, im losing my "touch" of certain stuffs.

I have been slowing down and that makes my progress prtty slow. Its not a nice feeling. And i need someone to hold on to to change. I need assurance. I pride myself to be a perfectionist only to realise that sometimes,you don't have to be perfect to love someone.

Romeo-ed,
Bil

2009-10-21T03:37:00.003+08:00

"Mmmm whatcha say, Mmm that you only meant well?"

I've not been blogging religiously as i used to. Caught up with work, girls, FaceBook, Twitter, MSN and the occasional LAZINESS. Im tired. But lately, there have been a few good news and bad news and i on my other other hand, have great developments going on for myself.

I may not be loving life 100% right now. But i know, the future will be better....Its a matter of time. A matter of delayed gratification. Seriously, i think S$100K/mth is a serious profession for me to think about deeply. Thank God, i withdrew from NIE.

But dont worry, im not a person who easily forgets his roots and friends.

Love,
Bil

2009-09-28T03:57:00.002+08:00

"Big Time in Little Street."

The cartoon above has no relations whatsoever to what im about to blog. Its just cute and pure plain funny. Love it. Then again, could it be true? o_O

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Im not too sure if anyone of you caught last Saturday's tele-movie, BIG TIME IN LITTLE STREET on Channel 5 at around 8pm? Its a local tele-movie, and god knows what is tele-movie really. I got the term picked out from some forum regarding the "tele-movie" you see. So yeah, pardon my non-media knowledge here.

Anyways, what i can say about that show was that IT WAS FANTABULOUSLY SUPERB. A class of its own. Totally. Period. I simply LOVE the movie, the plot and all. Cast was great. Storyline was awesome. Moral-of-the-story was superb. Nowadays, i watch movies to inspire me. To motivate me. Look at the underlying meanings behind every action that the character does. Im no Oscar critic or in its selection committee but simply put, i believe that movies are made with meaning behind them. For us to learn a thing or 2 about life. And not just about the drugs, gun fights, sex and money.

The tele-movie was simply awesome. Gosh! How many times must i say it???! Its about friendship, brotherhood, trust, business, future, love, perserverance and desire. What more could you ask for from a SG made film? Its the whole package. If Courts were to have their Mega Courts Sale, this is something like it. Too good to be true. And a TOTAL MUST WATCH BEFORE YOU TURN 20 kinda movie. Well, if you are BEYOND 20, all the more you should catch it. Dammit. Period.

If i could download (yes, i know its kinda illegal) I WOULD. I would rip it into VCD/DVDs and sell it...Big Time. In little street. Okays, pun not intended. Well, kinda. But whatever. Its SIMPLY A MUST WATCH, MUST SEE, MUST CATCH, DIE DIE MUST TRY AND WATCH IT ONCE! movie. Period. Thts the 3rd period im having in a post. I think i have cramps coming up.

What the fcuk are you wating for? Find the tele-movie, call mediacorp, whatsoever and watch it. And if you have a copy, tell me about it. Dont be stingy, share the love. I swear its a 10.10 tele-movie...coming from a Singapore film, thats some R.E.S.P.E.C.T you should start considering to give to man.

Big Time,
Bil

2009-09-23T00:49:00.002+08:00

"Trip of a lifetime."

You could choose to be "Homeless and unemployed" OR "Just Lazy". Either which it wont do you ANY good. That being said, this comic strip reminded me of one thing - Life. We could always be the 1st guy, the 2nd guy or even the people who are already working, employed. But one thing's for sure is that NONE would have the ultimate luxury of time as what im about to blog here. Its gonna be a VERY VERY VERY looooong post. Hang in there. Dont be like the "Just Lazy" guy.

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Alright, recently, i was discussing about taking a break/vacation/holiday whatever you call it, from all the hustle and bustle of SG life. So i asked, "What would your favourite holiday be like? And where?". While everyone have their dream vacation and holidays from Hollywood to Mumbai to Hong Kong, I have mine in mind. While everyone have their 3 day holiday vacation break to their month long honeymoon around Europe or where ever, i have mine in mind too.

Now, you might be wondering what would that dream holiday/vacation of mine be. Mine would be nothing fanciful like just going to Paris to buy a Chanel bag or LV suit or some sort like that. Or that kind whereby you go Safari at South Africa for a day or two and go home. Nope. Mine, would blow your mind away.

It'll be a trip to 52 countries/cities. Consecutively. Staying in each country for at least 5 days (plus traveling time, total would be 7 days). That would give me a total of 52 weeks for my vacation. If you do your maths right, it'll be 365 days a.k.a 1 YEAR of holidaysssss. Around the world. Free and easy. I already have the countries/cities in mind. Bear with me here, they are....

(High-chance it'll be in this order)
0) Changi Airport, Singapore
1) New York, USA
2) California, USA
3) Las Vegas, USA
4) The Grand Canyon @ Arizona, USA
5) Toronto, Canada
6) Rio De Janeiro, Brazil
7) London, UK
8) Manchester, UK
9) Paris, France
10) Madrid, Spain
11) Barcelona, Spain
12) Rome, Italy
13) Milan , Italy
14) Zurich, Switzerland
15) Bern, Switzerland
16) Berlin, Germany
17) Amsterdam, Netherlands
18) Copenhagen, Denmark
19) Prague, Czech Republic
20) Moscow, Russia
21) Athens, Greece
22) Istanbul, Turkey
23) Cairo, Egypt
24) Cape Town, South Africa
25) Kruger National Park, South Africa
26) The Drakensburg Mountians, South Africa
27) Abu Dhabi, UAE
28) Dubai, UAE
29) Huvafen Fushi, Maldives
30) Diva Maldives, Maldives
31) Alila Villas Hadahaa, Maldives
32) Mumbai, India
33) New Delhi, India
34) Kathmandu, Nepal
35) Beijing, China
36) Seoul, South Korea
37) Tokyo, Japan
38) Kobe, Japan
39) Taipei, Taiwan
40) Hong Kong
41) Manila, Philippines
42) Sipadan Island, Sabah, Malaysia
43) Bandar Seri Begawan, Brunei
44) Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam
45) Phnum Penh, Cambodia
46) Bangkok, Thailand
47) Ko Samui, Thailand
48) Bali, Indonesia
49) Great Barrier Reef @Queensland, Australia
50) Ayers Rock @ Uluru, Ausralia
51) Sydney, Australia
52) Auckland, New Zealand

Finally. After 365 days. 52 weeks. 52 countries. Its finally back to Singpore y'all. (:

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Dont you just love this plan? I have the plan, i have the time. All i need now is the money. Now, if anyone is interested in venturing with me in this trip, this DREAM vacation of mine (and prolly yours too) let us pool together our resources and get the best deals in the world for this trip. Let me know if you're interested. We'll definitely work something out, to get the money. Sponsor anyone? Hahaha! Estimated expenditure (air flights, accommodation and all): S$182,000/person. Thats S$15200/mth. S$507/day. Its that cheap!

If theres one thing i know is that, whatever thing in this world that has a price tag to it, it means its achievable. Its only a matter of time. And for all the sights and sounds and people and cultures that i'd be interacting with - priceless. We live life once. This IS indeed a trip of a lifetime.

Just so you know, my targeted date of travel, 010411. 2 years from now. So start saving y'all. (:

The Globe trekker!
Bil

2009-09-22T14:50:00.002+08:00

"Thoughts become things"

Sometimes when we are angry, it brings out the best in us. I need inspiration, motivation and a really good feeling. Feels like theres more to life than my simple life. Thought become things, they say.

When you lose everything, you would be capable of anything.

In the Pursuit of Happiness,
Bil

2009-09-21T18:16:00.002+08:00

"Enjoi."

I am very very very tired. I do not know why but thats just me now. Yawning and yawning ever since i woke up this afternoon. Yes, afternoon. I slept at 0100H and woke up at 1500H. But my body is still feeling lethargic. Couldnt have been the food or the travelling i made to ppeople houses yesterday can it? No, i dont think so.

Weird thing is that i had 2 dreams while i was asleep for that 14 hours. It was weird because the dreams were weird. Exciting and weird to be exact. Car chases, girls, school, parties and fights. It was like a story from a Hollywood movie scene which i swear could be a blockbuster. Hands down.

Im just bored, tired and lethargic. And seriously tired. I havent bathe yet and im still hungry. What is happening to me? *yawns, like seriously at the point of blogging*

Yours fruly, madly, deeply,
Bil

2009-09-20T04:53:00.004+08:00

"It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep."

Lets just know that when you think life sucks and what you're facing is pretty bad, someone, somewhere out there prolly had it worse. I pity the Japanese Hiroshima-ian chap who was broken hearted when his girlfriend dumped him back then in 1945.

So you see? Life aint THAT bad. NOT getting the duit raya this year isnt the end of the world afterall. It just means that you've grown up, older and wiser and prolly gonna suffer the financial burden soon. NOT getting the girl-at-geylang-serai's number was OKAY too actually. Fer all you know, she could be a vampire chick like Buffy.

Gawd, its 0516H and im still not asleep yet. Its Hari Raya Bil! You've gotta summon all your energy today...to eat. Get fat, look handsome and get rich (hopefully) and on other occasions (sidetrack a bit here) get lucky. (:

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I just got mio TV installed and i must say its a pretty good stuff to have. Free movies every month. Not counting those that you have to pay for lah, but still, at least i dont have to watch re-runs of Growing Up every weekday in the afternoon or Channel News Asia's Primetime Morning show at 12AM.

Anyways, HAPPY HARI RAYA Y'ALL! And actually, i was just kidding about the top few paragraphs. Your life really sucks if you cant get at least 2 green packets from ANYBODY in this year's Hari Raya. And....you suck BIG time for not getting that girl's number. Too bad, now some pathetic MAT is gonna have to make out with her. Wasted kan?

Hahaha. (:

Oooh, i forgot! If you didnt puasa....dont eat the food and step celebrate the occasion. Wait next year, try again. :D

Yours truly,
Bil

2009-09-19T03:52:00.002+08:00

"It feels so wrong, it feels so right."

Had a filling time having supper with S and A at Boon Lay's Nasi Lemak stall @ 0200H. The nasi lemak was OK, not anything fantastic and the teh tarik was a tad too sweet i guess. But if you're hungry, everything must go, can go and lets go! Macam the lelong! lelong! at the bazaar Geylang during hari raya period.

Before that i had buka puasa at Mak's Place (literal translation: Mother's Place) down at Changi Road there, near Geylang. Ate with A & his brother, I. Not "I" as in "me" but its his initials. S was supposed to join us, but last min paitau, buih, bubble, fly aeroplane, never come and many other ways of saying....errr... "never come lah!". That being that, we ended up ordering Tom Yam soup ($6.50), Lemon chicken ($10) and Buttered Squid ($12). BUT i tell you... its really A LOT! The serving they give for the rice, like damn a lot. Until i cannot finish. Can you imagine?!

Best part, its damn filling to the max. Wanna go there again uh! I was closed by the food. Hahaha. Spent a whoppin $11 per person though, a bit expensive. But THANKS UH "S" FOR NOT COMING! Hahahaha!

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Anyways, while at Boon Lay, the topic about relationships came up. Then marriage. And i for one, didnt like talking about it. Truth be told, i couldnt see myself commiting to a marriage. Maybe because im still young at heart and mind. Although im NOT gay as many people think i am (just because i hang out more often with guys than the opposite sex), i personally feel that im not ready to commit. Yet.

Maybe what i really want is to experience the luxuries of life, money and freedom that God has "given" to us but we all fail to search for it. Always hoping that it'll come our way by just praying and praying and having faith in it.

Praying is one thing. Putting in the effort is another. I want to enjoy freedom first before commiting to someone. Love to me, is a very strong word. A feeling you cant just say "I love you" and next year or so, you break up. Maybe i dont want to feel hurt. Maybe im just emotionally soft inside me while my exterior and fighting spirit is just booming with confidence.

But one thing's for sure is that if i ever "fall in love" with that certain someone, i'll promise to give my best and to give her the luxury of life that she should be receiving. You know like drive her around in my Porsche or Lamborghini and living in The Coast at Sentosa Cove... Nothing fanciful really. I just dont want to see my special one suffer.

Hey, Im just being responsible here, ok?

Your (alpha) Romeo,
Bil

2009-09-17T03:38:00.003+08:00

"Now you know..."

The truth about teletubbies would hurt you if you had ever been a BIG fan of that masquerade shiete. Speaking about "hurt", im greatly hurt about certain events that occurred to me lately. Its been very very emotional and pressurising not to mention the feeling of depressed. I tried to shake it off and be logical about it, it kinda worked. Immersing myself amongst good friends and having dinner together with T, S and R :) was great. But then, it all came crashing down again.

I guess life's full of ups and downs, and currently, im feeling the heat - BIG TIME. As i sat there thinking, pondering, wondering what should i do. To go with Plan A (little risk, high cost) or Plan B (high risk, little cost). Typo error? NOT. Im a man who takes calculated risk and thus went for Plan B. Insya'allah, all will go well today as i got 13 hours left before "deadline".

On a more random note, as i took the train at Bugis, i "bumped" into an pretty cute Indon girl who reminded me of a certain someone. Memories and such flushed back into my mind. Is this LOVE? Or is it just a one time fling, like i have always been feeling? I shall not be selfish. And its soooo hard to keep to my promise i made to myself. An ode to NMW. I'll get the car first honey, then we can go for a joy ride.

Its funny how you have the feelings for 2 people of very different personalities and style. Its like i never had a specific kinda girl.

My life was never meant to be "paradise". Not yet. But i could feel it coming, soon.

Pretty and cutely soon. Just like that Indon girl. ;)

Juliet-ed,
Bil

2009-09-17T03:08:00.000+08:00

"Cause im no Superman"

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide.

Not your everyday superman,
Bil

2009-09-16T12:00:00.002+08:00

"Rats Rats Rats!"

Mannn.... if only they sell such things at gift shops. But i guess thats life for the majority of people. Always ever so stuck in the rat race. Trying my best to get the hell out of that wheel. But it requires more than just a change of attitude. Its a mindset change as well.

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Update updates: Last Friday, i went over to Sentosa. Sentosa Cove to be exact. And OMG, it was AWESOME. Despite the fact that its the 2nd time i went there, the place just never seem to bore me and wow me even more with new developments. The Coast @ Sentosa is really a very nice apartment unit. The design of the whole building was just uber nice. Kinda reminded me of those buildings/apartments by the beach of Miami. Well, not that i have BEEN there literally, but theres always something called CSI: MIAMI. Get the drift.

Anyways, i got to know that those luxury apartments AND terraces over there with their yachts parked behind their houses cost around S$5-20mil. And that these people living there, are probably the CEOs and bosses and businessmen of certain MNCs. And prolly some Temasek Holdings people too. Hahahaha!

Well, to me, it does seem like a very high price to pay for a house in Singapore. Then again, its not really IN Singapore. But for the sheer luxury and class and serenity being over there, its just totally awesome. Worth the money i guess. Well, that is if you are making AT LEAST S$90,000/mth (rough calculation).

But nonetheless, being there has given me a new breath of life. And its called Dream. And like what Chris Gardner (from the movie: Pursuit Of Happiness) once told his son, "You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period.".

Those houses were built with a price tag. And for everything that has a price, it means it can be bought/achieved. Its only a matter of time.

Yours Inspired,
Murcielago

2009-09-15T11:55:00.002+08:00

"Saving Gaia."

Enough said. Its about time they start re-showing those Captain Planet cartoons and make a movie too. (:

Your Captain Planet,
Bil

2009-09-14T11:26:00.002+08:00

"You cant handle the truth."

Now we all know why...

Musician Attitude,
Bil

2009-09-13T23:11:00.003+08:00

"Rain dance"

(from the awesome web page of http://www.wulffmorgenthaler.com/)

I realised one thing in life, sadly after 21 years of my life only, is that somethings in life, is not what it seems to be. IF you ever want to achieve something different, logic and change is something you have to embrace. However, not many people are willing to embrace the latter.

And that all it takes is that 1 person to show you the way.

Your Sitting Bull,
Bil

2009-09-11T03:05:00.003+08:00

"If you gotta Joe, you just gotta Joe."

I cant seem to find the time to blog ever since there was Twitter and work. So many things to share and to give you bed time stories so you can tell your grandchildren about. But sadly, Ol' King Cole over here aint got his merry old soul to share it with you yet.

Life's been hectic and busy. But i like. Its something known as "delayed gratification". Something which we all know about, but never dare to get involved in, because the process is full of SHITS, cheese and whiskers. Imagine a giant blue rat and his 2 banana friends. But oh well, think long term bil, think long term.

Sometimes, certain things that you do, might just bring out the beast and the best in you. And for that we gotta know how to control it. Ask Dr. Hyde, he'll understand.You tame the beast, you get the best.

On a more cheerful and colourful note, Hari Raya is coming up (like next Sunday) and im sooo NOT gonna buy a new set of Hari Raya clothes BECAUSE i still like my ex-baju kurung of 2-3 years old. The design is unparalleled. The cutting, unmatched. The quality, superb. And The man-in-the-suit, unstoppable! (:

Anyways, till the next time i blog (which god knows whens the next time), I pray you pull back your cavalry and leave this matter to me. Sorry to ALL my friends who have been planning meet-ups and Jolly Roger here, cant make it. Like i said earlier - delayed gratification people. Delayed gratification.

*winks winks*

Yours truly,
Bil the G.I Joe

2009-09-05T17:28:00.002+08:00

"I'm close behind."

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

2009-09-03T15:16:00.002+08:00

"Oh oh problemo."

Im having some problems with my blogger and that sucks. Just as i was about to blog out some creative shiete, this happen. Damn!

2009-08-21T00:20:00.002+08:00

"Table of contents"

Life has been tough on me all these while. I choose it to be tough. In fact, i set myself a GOAL SO BIG this time that sometimes, i feel like crying. I mean, everyone goes through it everyday, less when they die. But i guess, for everything thats worthwhile and greatly desired by me, life's definitely going to be tough on me. Its always easy to give up and call it quits, but thats where life will laugh back at me and tell me that im just "3 feet way from gold and i QUIT.".

Those Ideas, Dreams, Abilities and Talents given by life, would all be put to waste if i hadnt even give it a shot at all. Cause one thing's for sure, until the day you really understand what you want from life and in life, is the day you start living.

Think and Grow Rich,
Bil

2009-08-01T20:13:00.002+08:00

Pursuit Of Happyness

Christopher Gardner: Hey. Don't ever let somebody tell you... You can't do something. Not even me. All right?
Christopher: All right.
Christopher Gardner: You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period.

2009-07-26T04:30:00.005+08:00

"Welcome to The TwitBlog."

Im going to do a TwitBlog for now. Less i have long stories to tell. Great tales to read to you. And awesome news to report. Other thatn that, catch me here. On twitter. Oh, btw, refreshing the page would sometimes update this post AUTOMATICALLY. Cool shiete huh.

I know. I know. :D

follow me on Twitter

2009-07-17T12:13:00.002+08:00

"SakMaDeek"

Its pathetic how the Malay kids can be nowadays. Mats and Minah (M&Ms) Reps are like everywhere, being influenced probably from primary school time even. They think that by dyeing their hair to many different colours is "cool" when actually, they're still in school or probably still under the care and guidance of their parents. Phuck you kids lah.

And oh, having those tight skinny jeans just dont look good on you (M&Ms) too. Some how, just some how, the Chinese could pull off the look. But you guys seriously got some fashion issues and boo boo to start off with. Those Ang Moh people wearing them in concerts, performing on stages, or celebrities are DIFFERENT. They're cool. You're Not. And oh have i mentioned that ever high trucker cap too? Dammit man, you guys spoil every good fashion things. Haiz.

Lemme not get started on the tattoos too. The tattoos are half-way done up (i.e to say no colour or shadings) because they probably dont have the money to get the full version. Nice. If only they had cut down on their mindless spending spree on useless junk and effed up fashion regattas.

Buying beer cans or bottles and sitting under the void deck and staricases trying to hide away from public eyes really aint cool too. Its uber stupid. Go to a pub where you can sit comfortably and enjoy the karaoke in it too. But then again, you guys probably dont have money to do so OR feel that you people look fierce being in the public open and drinking. Phuck you understand.

To be continued....

2009-07-15T05:08:00.004+08:00

"Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life's coming attractions." - Albert Einstein

I've to to greater realization in life; friends are here to keep us company, joyful, youthful and support us in our lives. I appreciate and thank God for giving me the chance to get to know such great friends in my life. However, this is only one 1 half of the realization that i have found.

The other half is that ironically - friends and loved ones would be the ones who are most resistant to me changing for a better. They prefer the "old" me. The typical Nabil who's playful, irritating (so that they will look better), egoistical, arrogant, the joker, the sporty type and as some might know, the smart one (in my family). Therefore my decision to withdraw from NIE's BSc PE teaching wasnt quite welcomed by my family members nor some of my friends.

But i believe that, that is just their opinion and personal belief in pursuing for higher education. And i respect them. However, its just not mine. Pardon me for i may be wrong in MY opinion, like i had always in the past; BUT I believe that it takes MORE than just education to SUCCEED and achieve our DREAMS in life. If we allow others' opinions to affect the way we want to lead our life or whatever plans we have to attain success, we would be in a very grave danger. Because i have come to realization that 10-20 years down the road, when i have my family, its not going to be my friends who would be feeding my kids. Its me.

I feel that we should not be so blind to follow what other people want to do. Instead we should take charge of our own lives and find ways to better it many many times, not by education only. Constantly "reality check" ourselves and be open to other greater opportunities out there. Like what was said in the TODAY papers, July 13th:

In a downturn, what's a degree worth?

If you havent been reading, i feel that its never to late to keep ourselves updated with the world's ever changing trends. One should not be ignorant in such times like these. And oh by the way, if you feel that you could secure that job like what those graduates had done (the last paragraph), then i would say "Congratulations!" BECAUSE they had just gotten yours.

Be different. Be better.
Bil

2009-07-14T13:50:00.003+08:00

They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself. - Andy Warhol (1928 - 1987)

2009-07-11T16:15:00.000+08:00

We are the world. We are the children.

:D

2009-07-08T15:35:00.002+08:00

"Rebulking"

Re-bulking in progress. Trying to gain back what had been lost due to 8 months of CV life. Autobots! Rollout! Im non-anorexic, im bigorexic. I wanna be BIG, but not too BIG like the 1st Giant-Wheeled Decepticon in Transformers 2. That is gay and ugly.

I've been reading up on quite a number of self-improvements books. Borrowed from the library. I forgot what they are all called, cause i accidently left it some where. Shit.

Success. Leadership. Attitude. Influence. Something like that. 4 books, 4 topics. (:

Oh yeah,
Bil

2009-07-02T23:02:00.002+08:00

“All men dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity. But those men who dream by day - these are dangerous men, for they dream with open eyes to make their dreams come true."
- T. E. Lawrence

2009-06-30T04:49:00.003+08:00

"You win some, you lose some."

I lost my $10 on the way to JB to pump petrol. BEST part - that was the only amount of cash i brought into JB. But oh well, i have contacts in there so i still managed to pump it up! Sing it: Pump pump, pump pump it UP!

On a more stressful note, i just realised that i have not completed nor submitted certain documents to MOE regarding my University application. It came so last min and now i would have to physically send it over to MOE. But one thing's for sure - I cant wait for the orientation camp for PE. Sounds physical and fun.

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Some friends say that i've changed lately. Maybe im not that ALWAYS playful and cracking jokes kinda guy no more. Maybe somethings in life i've experienced, tells me one thing. And that its always better to be prepared for the worst. We live our lives once only and i want to make the best out of it. To be somebody that i could and not somebody that i wish i could have been.

Dont be ignorant to change, friends,
Bil

2009-06-25T05:17:00.003+08:00

"Life's Okay."

2009-06-21T20:25:00.002+08:00

"Dark blue, dark blue."

I lost muscle mass, I lost weight, i lost my size, i lost the desire to gym on a consistent basis and i lost my strict 6-meals a day diet. Simply put, i lost the discipline to bulk up.

Its about time i start having Self-Discipline and Self-motivation for both work and play.

Transformers Optimize,
Bil

2009-06-16T01:25:00.002+08:00

"Brick Walled"

Having an apartment of your own might seem fun and all, but seriously, its a lot of tough work. Well, mainly because of House Keeping duties. Hahaha! I had the whole place to myself and woke up in the morning with the sun shining down into my room. Listened to radio the whole day and it was...nice. Really nice. Went out to buy breakfast and seeing people rushing off to work just seems scary to me.

Anyways, i DID the laundry, ironed my work clothes, swept the floor and yeah kept the house clean and tidy. (: Thats just soooo me when im free. And oh, did i mention watching How I Met Your Mother like 6 episodes per day?

Downside is that im hungry and cant cook proper meals. Shucks! Hungry hungry!

I need a part-time wifey,
Bil

2009-06-14T11:06:00.005+08:00

"One Time Only"

Rant 1:
Sometimes i feel like i should have done things better in the past. If i could go back in time, i would give my all and probably be someone better. But we know we would. But we know we cant. The only best thing is to make the best out life and be not the person who would say, "How i wished i had achieved more." or "How i wished my parents are here to see where i am now.".

Period.

Rant 2:
I have no regrets going into ARMY for NS. Nor regretting being a Specialist in the force. Cause i know, i may NOT have overcome as many obstacles and sufferings as an Officer would have faced. Isnt getting THAT much pay as an officer and not getting the prestige of a "commissioning parade" or a "commissioning ball"...

But one thing's for sure. Those 200++ recruits who have gone through my hands and be SOMEBODY out there in the force, is something which i am greatly proud of. Whereby no personal achievements or money could ever get you the opportunity to add value to one's lives. Many many one's lives.

With pride we lead - SISPEC.

All we have is one shot at life. Life's never about how good you are. Its about how good you WANT to be.

~~~

Family went off to KL.
But i am here people. I am here.
Commitment. Sacrifice. Discipline.
Its about time i start working on it.

The shadow inside me,
Bil

2009-06-12T05:41:00.002+08:00

"Going beyond."

All my life I have dared to go past what is possible. Past the impossible you might ask? Actually, past that. To the place where the possible and the impossible meet, to become... the POSSIMPIBLE.

Inventing your own word shows creativity and vision—"Visitivity.".

;)

We should all really make a video resume for our job resumes. instead. Shows creativity and awesome-ness.

"Creatiawetivity."

Nice.

Wooooow!
Bil

2009-06-10T07:22:00.004+08:00

"Nothing and Everything is Possimpible!"

(This is going to be a very looooong post to cover up a few days of posts i sup-post)

Im so tired, but i couldnt sleep. Im awake now since 1500H on Tuesday, yesterday. Many things were running thru my mind thus explains the i-cannot-sleep mode. Money, holiday, University, work, trying to set up a new business (which aint easy) and speeches just to name a few. Life's been good and bad and to be honest, its kinda fair.

I've been watching How I Met Your Mother like almost everyday. Re-runs after reruns while waiting for the new ones to finish download. Ooops. Its just funny man, the whole comedy thing and how the producers make them to be. One-liners and witty quotes are just my kinda things. It keeps things fresh. Like you-just-go-to-the-wet-market-and-buy-fish kind of fresh. And Barney Stinsen is just the whole lotta Alpha Male with loads of issues. Kinda sometimes reminds me of me. Full of crap, yet still surviving.

Barney Stinsen is the right-most character. Awesome dude.

So many things to do and complete today, yet i've already used up 7hours and 35min of my 24hours for Wednesday today. Life aint gonna wait for you, cause thats just not what life does. It moves on and on and on. What ever you do, you just have to make the best out of it as life's never long to enjoy. I mean, you COULD live up to 100 but what the hell could you be doing when you're 80 years old? Its a different thing if you're Hugh Hefner lah, but seriously, we just dont have the luxury of time anymore.

Hugh Hefner and his 6 ba-dang-dangs.

~~~

In case you havent realised, FREEDOM ISNT FREE anymore. Either, you work hard for it or you could just dont get them. Yes yes, freedom is subjective, but given a choice, im sure many would want to classify their "freedom" as being able NOT to work and probably travel round the world (helping others or so is optional) seeing the many wonders of the world. And as for me, i reckon owning my own Lamborghini would be nice to add to my list of "What is Freedom to me?".

Seeing the Lamborghini Gallardo Spyder so close to me yesterday night just kept me thinking and wondering and pondering if my friends will ever get to own one. Like you know we could ride down town in a convoy of Lambos and DAMN! it'll be a head turner. With all those "WARM! WARM!" engine sound, it's gonna be goooooooood for the chicken soup for the soul. Cause one thing's for sure, (and im sorry if im being such a bitch)... an 8-5pm kinda job will never get you one. It doesnt matter to me if you dont fancy a Lambo or so. Maybe you'd be contented with a Chery QQ i suppose.

This is NOT a Chery QQ, just in case you dont know...

~~~

Now, now, dont get me wrong here people. Im not superficial nor materialistic. Im not. Im just an average HDB-living kinda guy who dreams BIG, takes calculated risks, does things that most people dont and most importantly - dares to fail. My dreams may be laughed at, jeered upon, condemned and such, but seriously, if i dont get those responses, my dream is prolly not a dream. It'll be just like another typical average person's target-at-the-end-of-the-day.

And like what Randy Pausch said in his presentation during The Oprah Show lemme quote:

"The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough.".
- Randy Pausch, Author of The Last Lecture

And when someday i make it, which i would, i've really gotta thank my brick walls for making me want to achieve my dreams badly. Without them, i'd prolly end up... just like another brick wall.

Off to send my mom to work then off for breakfast,
Bil

2009-06-10T03:06:00.004+08:00

"Woooooooooo!"

-I woke up at 5pm yesterday.
-I love watching How I Met Your Mother because of its so how Comedy should be made.
-So many things are running through my mind everyday, and best part - i have to prioritize them all.
-I love putting pressure on myself cause that's what makes Diamonds.
-I really need a Wooo girl.
-I wanna watch Monsters VS Aliens but i just dont have the time.

The naked man,
Bil

2009-06-08T01:41:00.002+08:00

"Of white things and other white things."

I just realised one thing about traffic wardens or carpark attendants and traffic police. They wear white. And best thing, white being the purest of colours however doesnt quite reflect their nature of jobs cause firstly, they are comparable to the other "white things" that sits on the trees late at night. Lemme explain.

Carpark Aunties/Traffic Police:
Wears white.
Doesnt smile.
Comes silently.
Comes suddenly when you least expect it.
If you think about them, you'll see them around.
Makes you nervous when they come.
You will try to siam them if possible.
Rides a bike or walk.
Gives you the creeps.
When they look at you, you wish they didnt.
No matter how brave you are, you just dont want to meet them.
Lastly, they cant mind their own business. Cause its their job.

The Other "White Things" that sit in the trees:
It IS white.
Doesnt smile too.
Comes silently or laughing noisily.
Comes suddenly when you least expect it.
If you DONT think about them, you'll see them around.
Makes you piss when they come.
You WILL siam them if possible.
Rides on air or floats.
Gives you the creeps A LOT.
When they look at you, you'll piss again.
No matter how brave you are, they'll make you piss.
Lastly, they cant mind their own business. Cause its their "job".

Ya Lor Ya lor,
Bil

2009-06-02T09:04:00.002+08:00

"Feeling accomplished"

Wow. On Mondays, whereby people normally have the Monday blues and become ineffective zombies for the week, i did kinda the opposite. Surprisingly, i did more things than usual on that Monday yesterday. Here's a list of things which i somehow managed to do. And some weren't even planned, so impromptu. So spontaneous.

Started at 0730H

1) Sent my mom to work
2) Went for my FTE in BBDC
3) Went to collect my altered pants from G2000
4) Went to get my passport renewed
5) Got my helmet fixed (and nearly bought a new helmet!)
6) Went to work (for 3 hours only)
7) Saw an accident at PIE
7) Headed off to Jurong Point to meet up with friends

Ended at 0000H

I did 7 things within 13H 30min. Ahh... with a bike, anything's possible. (:

~~~

On a more serious note, i saw an accident happened right before my eyes while riding along PIE! To be honest, the driver was f**ked from the start. His rear bumper was already "shredded" and was driving very dangerously swerving in, out, in, out of the traffic. And when he got onto the expressway, he went wild. Thinking that there was an audition for Fast & Furious 5 (Singapore Streets), he seriously, sped all the way (120-150km/h estimate) also swerving in out in out of the heavy traffic. What is scary is that hs rear bumper is protruding out sideways thus is he were to pass a motorcyclist, it would have hit him.

But anyways, the bottom line is that he crashed into the central divider. Debris flew everywhere, smoke was in the air and the front part of the car was totalled. Imagine a flattened wheel! A car wheel plus rims literally flattnened! Wowowee! I dont know what happened to the MF but there was a man, lying on the road. So yeah, thank god that MFB (mutha f. b.) crashed. Danger to other users. Nabehhh....

He must have hada bad day. Should have listened to Daniel Powter's Bad Day to cheer him up, really.

Off to BBDC,
Bil

2009-06-01T12:48:00.002+08:00

"Ayat-ayat cinta."

So it seems like common sense wasnt enough. Well, to be honest, i feel that some of the questions were dumb ****. It makes no sense and its very vague. Maybe its because i've been on the road for quite some time and so a LOT of the questions were like "Dammit, there could be 2 answers for it.". So i was kinda pissed off. Anyways, i DIDNT study for it and yet i got 42/50 right. Extra 3 mistakes which caused me to fail. Dang!

Upon reaching home, guess what did i do? I watched Ayat-ayat cinta. Hahaha! I dont know why lah, but its just a great show to watch. And some how, i learnt quote a few things from it too, the 2nd time im catching it. ;)

~~~

On another note, one thing i realised how ignorant and how funny people seem to think. Many people want to lead the high life and make it BIG but NEVER ever though of doing anything about it.

They think playing stocks and shares seems like a good "investment" for them to reach their goals. Working that 8am-5pm job will definitely get that dream condo that they want in the near future. Marrying someone rich would do justice for some too. Its madness i tell you. There isnt any free lunches in this world, well unless of course the govt starts giving out free lunch coupons for the masses. Recession package they say.

All and all let me leave you with some words of wisdom to those people who wants an easy way outta life and wanting to dream big but never want to do anything about it.

"If you aspire to achieve things that you have never ever achieved in life. You must be willing to do things that you have never ever done before." - Big Bird.

No luh, i was jsut kidding. Its Ernie.

Amin,
Bil

2009-06-01T09:26:00.002+08:00

"Hello stranger."

Its 0927H in the morning and in about 1h 18min time i'd be sitting for my Final Theory Evaluation at BBDC. Havent really studied. Relying on one thing and just one thing alone - common sense. Lets see if it works. (:

Anyways, i went JB early morning and got "scolded" for now renewing my passport. Hahaha! Expires 24th June and i still have yet to renew it. But who gives a shiete right? As long as i get my petrol, its good. But on a serious note, i'd be renewing it later at ICA. Could not renew it online cause no Master Card yada yada.

Gtg bathe now and prepare to set off for the evaluation...

Common sense is sometimes uncommon,
Bil

2009-05-31T23:15:00.004+08:00

"How i met your mother."

Makes me psyched up, this video has.

2009-05-28T08:23:00.002+08:00

"People who are afraid of death are those who have lived with regrets."

I have many things to blog about. Lately, i have so many things in mind but if i were to blog it out like a paragraph type, then damn, i could submit an essay for Cambridge already. I tend to go a little long winded whenever i start blogging which is kinda a bad-good thing actually. For one, its an insightful blog read and for another, its just long.

So yeah, decided to keep things short and simple or also known as K.I.S.S - Keep It Short & Simple. Im doing this post in point form.

1) You could say that i lost my appetite this morning because Barca won Man U 2-0 in the Champions League finals. I kinda supported both teams actually in terms of game play, but in my heart, im a RED DEVILS fan. And i must say, they played disappointingly bad. They deserve to lose actually. Make it as a wake-up call for next season. Nabehh, make me waste my $4.50 worth of Nasi Goreng Daging Thai from Spize.

2) Have you ever wondered where does wind come from? I mean, after the whole "block of wind" passes you, where do they go? If energy cannot be destroyed then it means that the wind should be "floating" around somewhere... Hmm...

3) Would you go for someone who makes you happy or for someone you're happy with? 0.o

4) Im going to get my passport renewed. Dang, im gonna miss my old one. And i mean really old, still got my budak kecik face plastered on it. And the picture yellow yellow. Eeeee!

5) I PASSED MY PHYSICAL PROFICIENCY TEST! Which means to say im guranteed going into NTU NIE for the Physical Education course. OOOOOOOOH YEAH. Imgaine. Me. PE teacher. Awesome. I tell you.

6) I lost mass/weight lately. And i could see it. I have not been lifting weights, doing push ups nor chin ups and nt even eating right. What the **** is becoming of me?! I got 2 months to bulk up. Need help. Fast.

7) Restaurant City and Geo Challenge in FaceBook is fun. It might look like some lame crap application but its really addicitive. Something like Digimon/Pokemon in the past. (:

8) I am playing with my curly hair now. WTF?! Bad habit sia!

9) I wanna catch those block buster movies. But i just have no time.

10) I registered for class 3 license already. Going private and hopefully can pass by year's end, cause i'd high chance prolly be taking over his Honda Civic VTI EG6. (:

11) And lastly, im effing hungry now. Right now. Gotta go.

Okthxbi,
Bil

2009-05-25T04:39:00.001+08:00

"Joke"

Q: What do you call a cigarette thats filled with weed?
A: A Cigaweed.

Ok. Enough. Okthxbi.

The bill,
Bil

2009-05-21T17:59:00.003+08:00

"Lets be honest. FREEDOM isnt free any more."

I have finally registered for my Class 3 at BBDC. BTE is in 3 days time and my BTT is on the 26th of June. Im just too lazy to take up so many BTPs like when i first started taking my Class 2B. No longer kan chiong spider like last time. Just go for it naked. Pass pass lorh. Fail, then take again.

~~~

Anyways, Im supposed to be off to work. I have been up pretty late lately because i had a meetings to attend to these past few days. 9 months to overseas expansion and its pretty a great pressure on me to get selected for it. I've made plans to either defer my NIE studies (if possible) or break the bond if given the opportunity to go overseas. Its a serious matter im looking into. On one side, i have my parents to please as they want me to get "papers" a.k.a certificates. And on the other spectrum a basic salary of $50,000 per month if all goes well.

9 months to change my life.

Never have i been sought by any companies who wants to groom me and to the extend pay me more than my peers. If i ever miss out on this opportunity, it could be the greatest loss i'll be facing ever.

This is what im dealing with.

I've seen diamonds cut through heart of men,
Bil

2009-05-19T03:29:00.002+08:00

"Thailand!"

No. This post isnt about my trip to Thailand, cause I HAVENT gone there yet. But more of my plans to travel to Thailand, SPONTANEOUS, IMPROMPTU and on IMPULSE. That is to say, anytime i feel like it i'd go off to Thailand but for less than 24hours. Cause if more than 24hours must inform MINDEF. Damn leceh you know....

The plan would go something like this: On any day that i'd be free, i'd take cheap flight to Phuket or Bangkok at 0700. Reach destination at 9am. SHOP SHOP SHOP and then go home by 0000H.

How bout it? Overseas and over easy for less than S$200. Any takers?

Oh yeah.

Kap Pung Kap!
Bil

2009-05-10T18:48:00.001+08:00

"Simply magical."

I just came back from camp. And its really really unbelievable. Magical is more like it.

Wow,
Bil

2009-05-05T16:46:00.002+08:00

"8-Legged Freaks."

Disgusting. No time to explain any further.

Spidey,
Bil

2009-05-04T16:05:00.004+08:00

"Virgin"

Got my haircut just just now. And im hungry. And...i started my daily dose of exercise and mini-gym. Its about time i get oiled up for camp on friday.

And off the record, Jasmine filed my nails and polished my thumbs. Hahaha. That sexy lady... basket, never polish all my nails.

~~~

On a lighter note, i caught S-Factor showing on Channel 5 @ 10pm yesterday. Yes, yes, yes its that bimbo show i would agree but then again, at least they are hot and pretty AND sweet. I particularly like one of them - Jessica (Babysitter, 21) because although she may not be the hottest in terms of body or looks, but her personality does intrigue me. And oh yeah, she's a sweetie too. ((:

Hot hot heat,
Bil

2009-05-03T13:50:00.002+08:00

"My Personality"

Took some sort of questionnaire on FaceBook. Lo and Behold, the results.

View Full MyPersonality.org Profile

0 50 100	%
Openness	88%
Conscientiousness	50%
Extraversion	94%
Agreeableness	44%
Neuroticism	44%

Trait Explanations

In order to interpret your raw trait scores, they were compared to the first 350,000 people to complete the full MyPersonality Big Five questionnaire. This allows the way that you described yourself to be put in the context of how other people respond to the questionnaire. You should remember that there are no fundamentally good or bad personalities, as each trait description has potential advantages and disadvantages. To help you reflect on these, you have also been given some questions which ask you to consider the implications of your trait descriptions. Other people viewing your personality profile will not be able to see these.

Openness

This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer novelty versus convention. Approximately 88.5% of respondents have a lower openness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is far more intellectually curious and sensitive to beauty than most. You might say that your beliefs are individualistic and frequently drift towards the unconventional, and that you enjoy your imagination and the exciting places it takes you!

Reflective question: What place do you think that tradition has in society (if any)?

Conscientiousness

This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer an organised, or a flexible, approach in life. Approximately 24.2% of respondents have a lower conscientiousness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is spontaneous and fun, and that you like to do unexpected things that make life that bit more interesting. You might say that you aren't completely unreliable, but you've been known to slip up on occasion.

Reflective question: How do you go about tackling a new task?

Extraversion

This trait refers to the extent to which you enjoy company, and seek excitement and stimulation. Approximately 94.5% of respondents have a lower extraversion raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is constantly energetic, exuberant and active. Your answers describe you as someone who aims to be the centre of attention at social occasions, asserts yourself when in groups, and usually says, "Yes!"

Reflective question: Do you prefer to be busy all the time? Why?

Agreeableness

This trait refers to the way you express your opinions and manage relationships. Approximately 8% of respondents have a lower agreeableness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is willing to make difficult decisions when necessary, and will point out when something is wrong no matter what other people might feel. Your responses suggest that you would say that you can be tough and uncompromising.

Reflective question: When others are experiencing problems, what do you do?

Neuroticism (Emotional stability)

This trait refers to the way you cope with, and respond to, life's demands. Approximately 54% of respondents have a lower neuroticism raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is generally calm. Based on your responses, you come across as someone who can feel emotional or stressed out by some experiences, however your feelings tend to be warranted by the situation.

Reflective question: Which situations make you feel under pressure and which situations do not?

~~~

Research has found that the Big Five personality traits are significantly related to Jungian Typology (e.g. the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator). This is a popular alternative personality framework regularly used for personal development, in which Types are used rather than Traits. Based on your Big Five trait scores, your estimated Type is shown below (if you have already taken a Jungian Typology test and got a different result, this can be changed from the More Options section).

ENTP
Extraverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving

ENTPs are frequently described as clever, cerebrally and verbally quick, enthusiastic, outgoing, innovative, and resourceful. ENTPs are motivated by a desire to understand and improve the world they live in. They are usually accurate in sizing up a situation. They may have a perverse sense of humor and sometimes play devil's advocate, which can create misunderstandings with friends, coworkers, and family. ENTPs are ingenious and adept at directing relationships between means and ends. ENTPs 'think outside the box,' devising fresh, unexpected solutions to difficult problems. However, they are less interested in generating and following through with detailed plans than in generating ideas and possibilities. ENTPs are quick to see complex interrelationships between people, things, and ideas. These interrelationships are analyzed in profound detail. The result is an in-depth understanding of the way things and relationships work, and how they can be improved.

(:

FUN's my middle name,
Bil

2009-05-03T02:26:00.002+08:00

"I've seen diamonds cut through heart of men."

At my launch

~~~

On another side of life, i'm feeling sad, lost, disappointed, angry and even frustrated at some people and certain unfortunate events. Such feelings always make me feel hungry or even so, makes me wanna go gym and pump those iron bars. Guess, that's just what i'll do. But i'll do it at home.

Now.

Carat,
Bil

2009-05-01T18:30:00.003+08:00

"Diva is the female version of a hustler."

So long since i last updated. Guess im losing my creativity juices as the days gone by. To be honest, i have so many things that have happened lately and yet, the "creativity" in me just couldnt bring across those wonderful things in retrospect in terms of blogging. Gawd, what the hell am i saying here. Anyways, jsut for the record, i really find S-Factor Episode 5's Trailer background music really catchy. Its Diva by Beyonce i found out. Oh yeah.

*pauses and looks out of the window*

On a lighter note, i got myself a new bike. Well, not really "new" kinda new but just that i got a whole new paint job. Ferrari Red. Oh yeah. Am so loving this bikey now and wants to go out riding with it but sadly, alone isnt quite the funn-est thing to be doing. Everyone's busy busy busy. What the hell is happening around town here?

I'm just guessing its karma. What goes around, comes around. And yeah, life may not always be a full circle. But it could always be a square a triangle or even a star. Its how you shape your life that matters.

For me, its a half-drawn star. The best is yet to come. Watch this space

The Ferr-bikey. I call it, MURCIELA(let's)GO

Im your Hustler,
Bil

2009-04-27T01:12:00.002+08:00

"EXTRAVAGANTE"

Goodwood Park Hotel was awesome. 1st time there and no wonder its rated one of the best and top hotels in Singapore. I was there for the launch of the new series of High-End Designer Diamond jeweleries, a partnership between Jewels DeFred and my company.

It was awesome. Too bad i didnt have a proper camera to go along as (1) i had clients to attend to and (2) i never had one of those uber cool DSLR cameras.

Anyways, for those who dont really know what im doing, let me just put it, "If you dont understand, doesnt mean you should reject it.".

Adios.

I think i'll make more money than you'll ever do in 4 months,
Bil

2009-04-20T01:18:00.003+08:00

"The world aint all sunshine and rainbow."

I realised that playing texas poker on FaceBook and in real life is TWO different things. The latter is bad enough when you lose 10K worth of chips but it aint the same for the former when you lose $300 worth of chips.

Dammit. Gambling is bad and take it from me, dont gamble. Gambling was never an opportunity or chance to earn big bucks. The more you win, the more you tend to play and thus, the more you lose. Money practically revolve around the tables and hands.

Thus, in conclusion, gambling IS bad for the soul.

~~~

Sometimes, its people closest to us that laugh at our dreams and strangers will be the ones that support them. All i can say to that is "Dont let those who laugh at you, laugh too long.". So go out there and go for your dreams cause life's greatest achievement isnt about reaching your goals, but proving people wrong. An orgasmic feeling of satisfaction, yeah.

~~~

And some random, very random pictures.

It just taste better that way.
Bil

2009-04-17T05:12:00.002+08:00

"Now if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth."

I am the Thinker, the Thinking,
the Thought.
I am the Seeker, the Seeking,
the Sought.
I am the Dewdrop, the Sunshine,
the Storm.
I am the Phenomenon, the Field,
the Form.
I am the Desert, the Ocean,
the Sky.
I am the Primeval self,
In you and i.

-Michael Jackson

2009-04-15T03:25:00.000+08:00

"Rocky-fied."

Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.

You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done!

Now if you know what you're worth then go out and get what you're worth. But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody!

Cowards do that and that ain't you! You're better than that!

2009-04-14T02:43:00.002+08:00

"Dont let those who laugh at you, laugh too long."

I'm beginning to love and like Diamonds. I didnt know i had such exquisite taste for such girly stuffs. But oh well, it still beats having a gold ring on your finger, looks so apek and atok-atok (grandpa).

And just a heads up to anyone and i mean ANYONE reading this. If you ever wanna get engaged or looking to buy your love ones a diamond ring(s) or necklace(s) or whatever that screams DIAMONDS ARE FOREVER, let me know. Cause im your man with the Diamond Gun ala James Bond's "Man with the Golden Gun".

Chiao.
Bil

2009-04-09T01:35:00.000+08:00

"Blanks"

I've never really loved someone or anyone other than my family members. But that tingling feeling i have when i see her and that feeling of happiness where all the depression would just die away makes love a really wonderful thing, hard to describe but oh so easily felt.

2009-04-08T00:57:00.004+08:00

"A-C-C-I-D-E-N-T-A-G-A-I-N"

Well, just so you people know, i got into another accident lately. Monday to be exact @ Pan Island Expressway. Bikey was in a much worser state as the left half of the front completely broke apart and i was flung onto (luckily) the cheveron area. Rolled a few times was devastated when i saw bikey smashed like Mash Potatoes.

I suffered cuts and bruises and abrasions on my ankle, knee, butt and palm, all left side. And it hurts when u have to bathe with them.

Estimated cost of repair: $500

Excess payout to insurance: $300

Thats freaking $800 wasted just like that. WTF.

~~~

To be honest, my earlier accident 6 days ago wasnt bad and was TOTALLY my fault. But this one, even thought im at fault for langgar-ing the back of the car, it was the MF Johor car which caused me to bang onto the front vehicle. To cut the long story short, i'll have to settle the damages and insurance report first before i seriously wanna "kill" the MF who drove like fcuk and recklessly trying to cut into my lane.

I want justice. Someone call the Justice League.

From this....

To this...

Then this.

~~~

I wanted to blog about the Saturday Surprise @ Sentosa. But this shit just had to come along....

Superman Twice,

Bil

2009-04-02T04:21:00.004+08:00

"I like the people, i like the way they smile."

I havent slept for 48 hours since 1500H, 30th March 2009 all the way to 1500H, 1st April 2009. Wow. Im seriously shagged out.

Came to school late yet again. Man, what a teacher i am.

~~~

I sent my bike body kit for a new paint work and for some touch ups. And till then, i will have to make use of a temporary body kit. Ugly at first but i like to look at it from an artistic point of view. A contemporary art for 2-3 weeks. Hmmm...

Like WTFH really...

If i just had the time,
Bil

2009-03-31T05:13:00.004+08:00

"Happy Birthday."

The time on my watch shows 0000H or 12am if you cant read analogue. I had just came out of the toilet in my company and the first person i met, whom wished me "Happy Birthday"was Linda. Awww.... Haha. Right place at the right time. Anyways, i'm really happy (which puts a smile on my face) for every sms that my friend's sent me, wishing me Happy Birthday and such.

Because to be honest, im really badd at remembering birthdays and it does feel sucky when your friend remembers yours but you dont remember theirs. Oh well, will really try and start remembering from now on i guess. I've hit the BIG ol' Twenty One. Which i really feel good being a 21-er. Its makes you feel complete in adulthood knowing that a lot of things are legal as of the age 21. ;)

~~~

ON A BRIGHTER, MORE RUDE-AWAKENING NOTE - I got into an accident on the way home from supper with friends. Was sending Z back home when my rear wheel skidded on the wet surface of the road while turning and i hit the curb. Throwing my bike onto the other side of the road and me being flung out (not so violently) onto the opposite road too. Everything happened slow-mo and i still remembered the vision of my helmet scraping across the wet road.

My first instinct was if Z is okay or not. And surprisingly, Z suffered only a small scratch and a slightly battered pair of pants. Next was my bike and luckily the handlebar wasnt broken or anything. Just real damage to the fairring, a broken signal light and a cracked "bubble" (the front part). I quickly told Z to help me push the bike onto the side and chilled there. I didnt want any TP or whatever to come and start talking to us man.

Its all good though. At least i could still ride it back home with my right arms slightly injured. Hah. Here's some of the ground pictures that i took on hand:

Bruised but not Battered

The mileage clocked at the time of the accident.

I thought of giving it a more gradient kinda look.

And lastly, the blood and scratches...

Ok. So thats that for the accident. Buti just realised something eerie and uncanny similarity between my 1st accident and this one, my 2nd.

1st - Both happened on a "meaningful day". The 1st one was when i had just taken out my bike from the shop and the this one when had just turned 21.

2nd - Both happened 3-4 hours after the "meaningful day". 1st was at around 5pm after taking the bike out at 1-2pm. And the 2nd was at 4am, 4 hours after 0000H on 310309.

3rd - Both accidentes caused minor damages to the right side of the bikey.

4th - Both were because the bike striking the curb, and skidded before impact.

5th - My right arm is the victim of both accidentes.

6th - At the time of the accident there will always be another motorist who would just look and drive/ride off without offering a single help. Bitch. Not that i cared but seriously....?!

7th - Thank God im still here blogging. And not in the hospital or anything.

I need a car, a Murcielago.

Bil

2009-03-28T03:36:00.001+08:00

"The best way to predict the future, is to invent it."

I am 21 years old as of this year. And i have done my calculations and maths. I FOUND out that i will require 15 years to earn a 5 figure income (min. $10K) with my educational level of A Levels as of now. Seioushiete.

Let me do the breaking down of the 15 years (being optimistic here):

Year 1-4: Study to get a Degree (BaSc in NIE). Expected income: $800/mth (over 4 years)

Year 5-8: Serve bond with MOE to become a teacher. Expected income: $3000/mth

Year 9-11: Study for Masters Degree. Expected income: Probably $0-$2000??

Year 12-15: SURVIVE office politics and climb up the coporate ladder to become a principal or some BIG shiete UP THERE. Expected income:$10000

B-I-N-G-O!

I decided i couldnt really wait that long to make it big. Because by the time i make it, i'd be a good 36 year old man and though it still pretty young (below 40) but by then, $10000 would also mean i have a lot more liabilities to settle with. I just couldnt wait that long. And not only does 15 years seems pretty much long but also the process is a mutha-freaking killer!!! Office politics and back stabbing and re-learning again is just so hard. VERY HARD.

Maybe you should go and do YOUR calculations and mathematics of life and see how long you stand a CHANCE to make that 5-figured income. Just dont be surprised if it takes you longer than expected.

~~~

But of course, i'm not that stupid enough to go through this shiete route totally and suffer through 15 years so i can get my 1st 5-figured paycheck. I have my ways. And im buying myself this opportunity as a CHANCE to change my life and fast-forward me into my future. Even if it takes me 3 years, its 1/5 faster still. And this is just being pessimistic because i know that when i go global at the end of the year, i'm guranteed a 5-figured income. (:

And thats just me, giving myself a chance to change.

Now then, its time to look for a cute lovely wife.

How much longer can you wait?
Bil

2009-03-22T21:07:00.003+08:00

"With pride we lead."

One thing i realised about people (myself included) and life is that we work as if its the end of our lives. Well, i would too if i had been paid $10000 a month. But seriously, if we could actually listen and look up to our boss who pays us $1000-$2000 per month, would you listen to someone who would show you a plan to make $250K in the month of 2009?

Would you?

TwoFiveZero,
Bil

2009-03-21T20:32:00.003+08:00

"Sitting local but going global."

I've not been really blogging much lately. As much as i want to but im just so caught up with work, work and more work. It doesnt really help if my birthday's coming real soon too (3103)
and to be frank i havent really be planning for it. Where to go, who to ask out, who's in the Who's Who list and such. Its my 21st and always many friends i know make a BIG hoo-hah of their 21st. Its like the epitome of adult-hood. The time of your life where R21 movies begin to bore you. And where staying out late late at night is just like staying out in the morning. Period.

Life's been pretty good to me lately. Thank God for that. Recession and all kinda affects my relief teaching JOB and i havent been pretty much into McDelivery too. Business has been great and so i've decided to set up another one (still in paperworks) while im still able to. Quadruple income sounds really really good, but not many people can take that kind of beating i suppose. Its a really really Rocky Balboa kinda life.

And just to end this post, i'll end it with a quote: "Something wicked, this way comes.".

So. Start. To. Read. Your. News.

~~~

While at work, or should i say while i was leaving office today, my friends and i were discussing about some guy stuffs and all. And so this female friend of mine commented on my abds which i must say werent that fantabulous but all and all kinda good enough to be touched by many many...before. Thing is, my navel's kinda get that a lil' hairy (god knows whose genes i got it from. must be the french's) so its kinda blocking the shape and defination of the contours of the abs i must say. So anyways, this friend of mine commented on it. And guess what?

I shaved it just just now in the toilet. And now i feel so baby-fresh and DAMNNN (say it with a lil' slang) my abs look not-good-but-great. I feel so pure, so Boy-zillian as they call it. Hahaha. No wonder those models always looked shaved.

Man, i feel like a model for Calvin Klein underwear. You know those provocative pictures on the covers where by they just show the mid riffs of the models. Oh my god. Say it with my together now... OH. MY. GAWDDDDD.

Dont treat your friends like mushrooms.

I just have a thing for cute mushrooms now.

Mushrooms,
Bil

2009-03-17T17:34:00.002+08:00

"Its all about numbers."

14 more days. Just 14 more days....

2009-03-15T16:17:00.004+08:00

"Post Three Nine Five"

My hiatus i realised, will never last long. I was expecting a week or two kinda time-off from blogging but i just cant do it. I guess it grows on you naturally. Those days in which i had wanted to blog, i didnt have much time on it i was really busy checking out some other websites, reading emails, msn-ing and playing games on the computer. Despite me being able to multi-task A LOT (eg. eating, reading, watching TV, listening to music all at the same time), i just couldnt do it for the computer blogging, msn-in, etc etc part.

Anyways, NEWSFLASH! Manchester United lost to Luverpool 4-1 yesterday in the Premier League Show-Down. It doesnt matter to me if Man U had won OR NOT because they are wayy ahead of the pack (4 point lead) with a game in hand as well. So techinacally if they win their next match, it'll be a 7 point lead over Liverpool who is now 2nd.

I just feel like theres a conspiracy to this whole game because the way Van Der Sar acted at the goal was really disappointing. He just stood there and watch the balls go past him like the unemployed go into the recruitment fair. Totally out of forn. I bet Hassan Sunny could play better at goal.

And that Man United does not want to allow Chelsea to be 2nd in the Premier League just so as to prove a point to Hiddink that Alex Ferguson is still the Big Man in town. Period. I swear there is a conspiracy. Oh, c'mon people...believe me.

~~~

Rewind back to the 6th of March, i took my Physical Proficiency Test for NIE's Physical Education. It was pretty easy but somewhat tiring surprisingly. Especially the last game - The Possesion game. Its like Captain's Ball but with no score or goals. So yeah, others i think i did pretty decently well in it. The swim, the runs, the badminton and the gymnastics. Oh yeah. Hopefully i'll ge tinto the NIE Physical Education Course. Train and study to be fit. What more could a person like me ask for. Afterall, its been eons since i last worked out, went to gym etc etc. Now my whole body's kinda shriking. Yucks to the core. Totally.

So unlike me in the past. Everyday work out and gym and play sports. Oh well, i guess this is the outcome of an ORD personnel. Eat eat eat. Girls girls girls. Work work work. Shopping and all. Very bad. Very bad. But i'd sometimes put myself in the Bad Boys category anyways.

~~~

Just 16 days seperat 20 year-old me and a 21 year-old me. So yeah, kinda looking forward to it but rgiht now i still havent got anything planned out for the BIG day. Yes, friends, family, workmates. buddies. girls. parties, have been taken into consideration but seriously, i suck at planning parties. I only bring the FUN in parties.

Maybe you could help me out.

Okay, i know what i want for a present already. A full-faced helmet. Hmm.. now i gotta find my mother first....Ka-ching!

;)

Viva La Vida,
Bil

2009-03-12T15:14:00.001+08:00

"Sierra Tango Mike Foxtrot"

Away on hiatus. Busy busy body.

2009-03-09T10:04:00.002+08:00

"Mr. Curiosity"

Maybe i should have went for the Jason Mraz's concert in Singapore back on March 5th. I don't know. Everything happens for a good reason. As always.

Mraz,
Bil

2009-03-07T22:01:00.004+08:00

"Superstar 101"

The superstar is vulnerable. Your mind, body, and emotions will all be exposed in this process. There will be bumps and bruises along the way but in the end, you will heal and be stronger. It is ok to fear this pain, but you must be ready to push past it and continue on. The superstar does not quit.

The vast majority of limitations are self-imposed. Carefully monitor your own thoughts. When your inner voice mentions a limitation, acknowledge that this is likely a self-imposed ceiling. As you will see in time, once you stop questioning what you can and cannot achieve, you will frequently find yourself performing feats that before you didn't even think possible.

Nobody gets a smooth ride. Every now and then we all face challenges, and we all hit walls. While facing death, Professor Randy Pausch explained in his now famous last lecture that those walls are there for a specific purpose.

Always be humble, you are never too advanced to learn something new. Always be confident, know you are worthy of even the highest level of secret information.

Yes, setting reasonable goals for yourself that you know you can achieve and incrementing those goals intosmall chunks. That is important for the average person...BUT the superstar must strike the perfect balance. Remember today's second tip, you cannot limit yourself.

I am the superstar,
Bil

2009-03-01T01:24:00.002+08:00

"Grindin' till im tired."

Everytime, i had wanted to blog down my daily rants, loves and happening shietes, some other internet website would pop out and get me interested. Hence, i hardly blog. But life's been pretty busy lately and tiring. Juggling 2 temporary jobs and making plans to open up a joint-venture business with 2 other friends really take most of your days away. At times, i have only slept for 2 hours to manage and settle some shiete as well as helping out a friend over msn on CERTAIN problems.

~~~

Recently i met up with a friend of mine, a businessman and entrepreneur and a humble guy. He told me something which i hadnt quite realised about it that much. Until yesterday when i met up with him. He told me that fear is good for building dreams and achiving them. I was perplexed. I had always thought that working hard, having goals and praying to God would help me out. And so he shared with me, something along the lines of which i am about to type....

Sometimes, fear is good. Fear drives people forward. But fear can never work alone, one has got to have dreams and fears working hand in hand before they can move forward at a much faster pace. Everyone has dreams. Dreams to be rich and all. But everytime, a lot of people fail to have fear. I fear living the life like my parents and relatives now - living in a HDB and having measly salaries just enough to cover monthly expenses. That is why sometimes people dont really achive what they want in life, because knowing that even if they dont reach their dreams, at least they would still have a HDB house and all, just to make them feel better.

And he was right. Indeed i felt that way when doing my O's and A's but i had never really thought about it in such context - life and achieving the success that we want in it.

I have fear now. I fear of living in poverty, shame and failure. What about you?

Being fearless wouldnt really help you much,
Bil

2009-02-27T02:50:00.003+08:00

"If she looks like gold, treat her like silver."

Enough said.

2009-02-25T19:01:00.003+08:00

"Raining ducks and frogs"

I want to go off to work, but its raining heavily now. Im just too lazy to take the LRT-MRT. Sheesh, having a bike sure daoes make u lazy. Im so gonna need a car soon. Then at least i wont be drenched when it rains.

And it could fit more girls in it too. Okay, thats secondary.

:)

~~~

On a more gloomy note, an estimated 99,000 Singaporeans are going to lose their job. Oh boy, do i feel so happy when i see this news. Some of us will know why. *smirks*

Vroom vroom room,
Bil

2009-02-23T11:49:00.002+08:00

"Post-cratination"

Home gym exercise. It never happened. Fcuk that man. I was hungry like almost every hour despite having a solid meal of rice, potatoes, veggies, beef and fish. I still growing and hell i'd better do it quick before the 6th of March.

It looms nearer and nearer.

Everyday.

*screams and shouts*

Oh yeah,
Bil

2009-02-22T19:14:00.003+08:00

"Work Up."

I've decided to start back my home-gym exercises tonight. Man... i've gotta get this body of mine in shape before going into Uni. But more importantly, before March 6th. Dont ask why.

(:

need to get to where i was.

Boo-yah!
Bil

2009-02-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

"Chillax"

Met up with my KINDERGARTEN friend (16 years already havent met!) at town. Still the same old Shino that i know of well except much more bulked up and chubbier. Hee hee!

Had fun playing pool and learnt quite a lot from him seriously about pool. Maybe its because its one-on-one so it was very much like private lesson thingy. Nonetheless, i won 2 out of 6/7 games? Haha. Yes, he's THAT good.

Headed to the nasi ayam penyet restaurant at Lucky Plaza and it was seriously DOPE. Both price wise and taste. $6.50 for a large plate of chicken topped with spicy shietes i really cant tahan. In the end, Shino blanja-ed me a drink cause it was too spicy. An orgasmic cullinary experience i tell you. Spicy and burning my lips and tongue but i just wanted to finish the plate. Sadistic, but for a good reason. (:

All and all we chilled out in TANGS and WISMA, window shopping and chatting about old times and new. Yeah, we'll be meeting up again soon. Next time it'll be much more fun. (:

LAX,
Bil

2009-02-21T01:22:00.002+08:00

"My Life"

I had a surprising Thursday this week. Its was a funny, pleasent, weird and quite aa lot of other emotions combined together. But all and all a fun experience. Right D? Haha.

Okay, so i was supposed to meet up with this friend of mine (lets call her D) at Marine Parade. Ah, she was a long long time friend actually. 2nd last i saw here was back in Late secondary school days as a Venture. Venture Survival Course @ Pulau Ubin. Anyways, girls, as usual always late. So yeah, we met up Macs. And i had my Sundae thinkig she'd join me. But no. She had to sit there and we chatted. I'm guessing if i hadnt bought that sundae, we would be "kicked" out of Macs. Haha. That explains.

Anyways, our conversations led to us going to the Golf Range near East Coast park to meet up with her dad and other family members. It was weird partly because i have never been to a golf range (i dont quite like golf) and secondly because i met up with her dad and all. Haha. He was a funny guy, full of jokes and very experienced in both golf and PR skills i could see. Taking a day off to play golf, wow. Wished i could do something like that when i grow up, but minus the golf. Probably soccer or rugby would be nice. (:

We then headed to ECP for a mini picnic and get together. Lasted kinda short cause i had to go off to meet my friend nearby. Nearby for me because i had a bike. Ahh, the wonders of having a bike. But yeah, it was a mixed-feelings kinda meet-up which was surprisingly fun. Haha. Now who would ever thought i'd be at a golf range on a great thursday afternoon eh?

(:

Like what the hell am I doin right?
Bil

2009-02-18T07:29:00.002+08:00

"Happyfied."

I'm so happy today. Well its because my request to change my course of study in NIE from BSc (General Studies) to BSc (Physical Education) has been granted! OMG! I'm gonna be a PE teacher baby! Woots. Well, i must take up the PPT first that is and pass it but of course, im sure i'll do just well in it. ((:

PE teacher, wow. Just exercise all day, keeping fit and all. What more can a man ask for? ((:

See you when i see you,
Bil

2009-02-16T10:02:00.002+08:00

"Crack a bottle"

I know i've not been blogging lately its because i fell ill and came down with high fever that lasted for a week. Its pretty a shitty feeling. Lost a lot of weight and now trying to gain them back asap.

Nothing's new other than that besides probably my work and all. Been busy and all. Till next time i guess.

Presenting the presnt,
Bil

2009-02-04T16:08:00.002+08:00

"Fool of a took!"

Recession is coming people. Hope you lose your jobs cause only then would you realise what Paul Zane Pilzer has said is true.

I NEED a Lamborghini Murcielago LP 640 before i reach 30. Working overseas next year hopefully.

ORD loh!
Bil

2009-02-03T01:41:00.004+08:00

"People watching."

I went down to town yesterday morning to meet a friend of mine. After he left, i was sitting by the sidewalk waiting for another friend of mine but i was merely people watching at the same time. I'm dumbstruck when i saw people going shopping on a Monday morning to fashion boutiques such as Esprit, Zara and Massimo Dutti. They did not have to go to work so early like the other people and yet still got the money to splurge on such stuffs.

One word for that - Wow.

I realized that looking at people achieving such "madness" is just crazy. No work or off to work later on a Monday and going shopping in town to such boutiques, i told myself, "I NEED to be like them.". Maybe not now, but in 5 years time, when i'm 26. I'll be the one going shopping on a Monday morning and having people say, "Wow. I NEED to be like him.".

Dreams arent meant for sleeping. God gave us dreams to see how far we'll go to reach out for them. And its just a matter of how much we want it. But for me, i NEED it. 5 years. Watch me grow people. Watch me grow.

my aunt bought me this keychain. maybe its a sign of things to come...

...like a Lamborghini Murcielago LP640.

5 Years time,
Bil

2009-01-30T15:42:00.001+08:00

"Rainbow"

Ever felt happy, then sad, then disappointed then happy back again then motivated then whatever again. I have and it sucks. Its like having butterflies in your colon.

7 pounds,
Bil

2009-01-28T21:34:00.003+08:00

" Fly, you fools. "

I've been feelin' kinda shitty lately, because of the many breaks in this work month of mine. Its like you're getting the momentum of things going and suddenly, theres a red light and you have to stop.

I have been on a Lord Of The Rings movie marathon (with breaks) lately. I dont know why, but i seem to have missed those days of wanting to catch LOTR in cinema with my buddies. The good ol' times i suppose.

Quote from LOTR: "So do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us."

I guess its true... I guess its true.

hard times come by before good.

The bridge is near,
Bil

2009-01-26T20:05:00.004+08:00

"You're beautiful."

(Based on a true story)

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the restaurant.
She was with family.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Haha,
Bil

2009-01-24T04:46:00.003+08:00

"Expecto Patronum"

If there's one thing that i really LOVE to do, especially to critics, is to prove them wrong. Always had, always will. Its not ego, its not pride, its just me.

Life in my context, is like a computer keyboard. We input what we want into the program (our lives).

Back from JB,
Bil

2009-01-23T11:04:00.002+08:00

"Groggy and F**k"

2 things happaned lately. One, I did not sleep for 36 hours straight yesterday yesterday till today morning. Two, i got my hair cut by a hair dresser that cut off my "long" sideburns. F**K.

Hey pissy pissy,
Bil

2009-01-22T11:38:00.001+08:00

"Diana"

I'm so young and you're so old
This, my darling, I've been told
I don't care just what they say
'Cause forever I will pray
You and I will be as free
As the birds up in the trees
Oh, please stay by me, Diana

(I'll post my acoustic audio version up soon of this song)

2009-01-21T16:47:00.002+08:00

"Persistance pays"

I woke up at 3pm today. Came back from work at 3am after sending "girlfriend" back home first. Haha. Body was damn shagged and tired. Coupled with the strong windy conditions lately, the chilly night wind didnt help me at all. Riding through PIE at only 80km/h was like riding through the icy tundra. My hands and knees became numb. I started to chatter because the cold wind blew straight into my helmet.

It was just terrible. I'm having body aches because in the morning, after sending my siblings off to school, i decided to do a couple of exercises first. Namely The Chin Ups. My personal best was 25 in one go but i managed to do only 16 yesterday. I guess my body just wasnt conditioned after a long time and so the strain build up upon me. *sigh*

My Lats and back feel really pain. Pain but it feels kinda good. Its like tight everywhere, thats good isnt it? Maybe i should stretch a little also. Anyways, its 5pm now and i havent bathe today, let alone ate my lunch. I'd be doing so soon before heading off to work.

Hope it wont be a chilly night like last night again.

Run like the wind,
Bil's Eye

2009-01-20T10:00:00.000+08:00

"Penny wise, pound foolish."

I'm bored, hungry and lonely. Now, how's that for a combi? Ever dreamt of making love to a hot female vampire? Now thats hott...

Random. Very random.

Trilight,
Bil

2009-01-16T03:08:00.002+08:00

"In a world where you can be anything, be yourself."

I honestly didnt realise that my previous post could actually "belittle" someone, let alone anyone. Its sad yet funny because some people actually know about the ugly truth in life but they choose act nonchalant about it. I'm not saying that we shoudnt save up or get a second job or whatever. Its just, what would be the value of our money in the next 10-20 years. Would $3000 acutally be enough for us to live WELL & COMFORTABLY?

This isnt some "financial enlightenment" that i have "found" but just a few thoughts in mind while i was sitting down by the balcony realising that my bank account is running dryer and dryer by the day. If only we took some time off to think about our finances and the future we'll be heading towards to. Its kinda scary sometimes.

~~~

All and all, I'm sorry if i have offended anyone or someone out there. I sure am not belittling you or your friends. Neither am i saying that we shouldnt save up nor get a 2nd job. Yeah, its true that people work UP a job. But for how long will we have to go through the office politics, the back stabbing and all just to reach the top? I cant bring myself to do it, cause not a lot of people became rich and successful that way.

If only, you'd take some time to understand my point of view. Let me explain and show it to you, less the drawings, then maybe you'll get to see what i see.

Set the date. Let me know,
Bil

2009-01-14T01:21:00.003+08:00

"I'll fix you."

One thing i realised about Singaporeans is that we go after education papers as if its the most important thing in life. Only to secure a job that pays $1800-$3000 a month after 16 years of education just doesnt justify MY effort and time i've "invested" hoping to get a good paying job. I'd probably spent more than a million bucks in the process of getting a degree and all i'm worth is $3000 a month?! Someone up there has got to be kidding the shiete out of me.

To be honest ah, the only reason why 3000 bucks looks big to many of us now is because we haven't been earning 3000 bucks a month before. Furthermore, we dont have much liabilities (such as bills, kids and a house of our own) in our young age like now. But trust me, when the time comes, we'll be hoping we had earn more or holding onto a second job.

But you probably dont and wont care cause you arent affected right now. I know, because i was once like you.

I hell know,
Bil

2009-01-12T01:43:00.002+08:00

"Update to version 2.090210"

Few things i have to get back on track this month, if possible, by this week. They are:

1) start back my daily gyming/exercise routines
2) re-vamp my business model
3) send out more resumes (reh-zoo-mehs) to companies just to make it more difficult for retrenched/non-working people to get a job
4) start waking up earlier
5) being happy

Give my regards to soul and romance,
Bil

2009-01-08T11:06:00.000+08:00

"O. M. Geez."

What the hell did i get myself into. I'm half-naked, covered by only a flimsy towel down at the bottom sitting by the window in my balcony, blogging. Enough of details but just a few moments ago, i was happy but at the same at the back of my head i went: "Wolly Sheet! What the hell am i getting myself into?!".

Yes people, i got myself to call schools to apply for a relief teaching post. HAHAHAHAHA! Okay, i know i may have the credentials to teach P.E but when some schools asked me "What subjects can you teach?" i was like "General Studies! And i could do P.E as well!". Hahaha. General studies... man what a broad course of subjects. English, Maths & Science. I realised that my English is pretty much screwed up after NS and all the MSN-ing and SMS-ing all these 2 years ++.

I scored a B for Mathematics for my A Levels but that doesnt make me any smarter now really. The only numbers i can think of is the number of push ups/ chin ups and simple addition and subtraction and throw in a few simplest algebra. Integration and Differentiation is a total NO-GO and screw Statistics as well. I'm good only when i'm good. NS screwed up my mental calculations (haha) and so i may need some time for calibration.

Science. I'm good at that. Biology and Physics seem to be my forte. Not really a forte but more of the more favourited science subject that i can think of. Chemistry is pretty lame and stupid, probably because you cant relate chem with much of the everyday thing you do in life. Well, thats how i get my interest on in subjects. (: In fact, i recalled called my Chemistry teacher a Bas*tard! (wow, that really helped in censoring) back in Secondary school all because he didnt want to award me an additional 1 mark in a test/exam. I dont remember. He was being biased, so he kinda deserved it. And not to mention i had to cry myself out of detention. HAHAHAHAHAH!

Oh well, relief teacher i would be someday when those school call. So yeah, wish Mr Bil some lady luck. (:

Good morning Mr Bil,
Aww....

2009-01-07T15:35:00.002+08:00

"Leaving on a jet plane."

I wanna buy a one way ticket to Europe and probably just get lost in the hustle and bustle of the city. Work as a Coffee boy down in Paris would be good too. Yeah. A spontaneous Euro trip, priceless.

Au revoir!

Your Parisian,
Bil

2009-01-06T08:08:00.004+08:00

"Alone we are not this world we are in"

Quote from whyisitsohardtochange:

My dear fellow readers, we have so much time ahead of us, so much to live for and so much is in store for us. But our parents, they do not have that luxury of time no more. Even if one day, 30 years down the road, we become successful and lead a wealthy and happy life, would they be there with you to see you being successful? Or would you be wishing that your parents could be with you at that moment in time....

....Cause time wont wait for us and neither would life.

~~~

I love my parents, do you?
Bil

2009-01-05T12:23:00.004+08:00

"It is WAR!"

From Yahoo! Singapore news (050109):

Israeli army moves on Gaza City as war toll passes 510

Israel's a bitch and HAMAS is an idiot. One has the backing of a powerful (but deflating economy) country while the other has the sympathy of many economically rich (but powerless) countries.

What Israel is doing is TOO MUCH and TOO EXCESSIVE. Pounding villages and cities with their artillery and bombs just to show off their might in that region. But killing innocent civilians at the same time. They should really consider their actions. If they had really want to wipe off HAMAS just like HAMAS wants to wipe them off, then they should go head to head, urban ops what so ever. I mean, isn't Israel has the most sophisticated weapons and systems around town? If so, prove it by not being ABLE to kill innocent lives.

What HAMAS is doing is pretty stupid. Randomly shooting off rockets into Israel doesnt quite do much damage as Israel is doing onto them. They should seriously stop, look and plan properly to inflict proper damage. Come on, your freaking people are being killed like ants and all you are stubbornly doing is peppering the enemy's land with cherry bombs. What the fuch. Say it with me, WHAT THE FUCH!

~~~

Someone ought to teach these two warring neighbours The Art Of War. Well, maybe UN could help by dropping Sun Tzu's The Art OF War books into both sides. Available at all major leading bookstores, world wide. (:

but then again, both sides wouldnt know how to read them right?

General Pom Pei-pei,
Bil

2008-12-31T09:35:00.005+08:00

"Two Zero Zero Niner"

In just a few hours (14 hours!!) 2009 will come and 2008 will be a thing of a past. Lets hope there'll be no more wars and conflicts and natural disasters that'll kill kill kill innocent human beings. Let's pray for prosperity and success in whatever we do.

But of course, if we ever want to change our lives for the better, we MUST got to get out of our comfort zone no matter what people say to us. Next year's a great year to start actually. Could be one of the New Year Resolutions that we make for ourselves to TRY and follow. Well of course, we all know out of the many many resolutions we make, we'll probably screw up most of them...just like Hugh Hefner and his Playmates.

By the way, i just realised, this is my 360th post since the 12th of May 2007! What a way to usher in the New Year with a 361st post. (: Well, you could have said that it was all planned out from the beginning.... *loves loves*

~~~

MY New Year Resolution for 2009:
(Not in any order, well it could be)

1) Get a decent paying job
2) Get a great happy job
3) Get a better body
4) Get a new bike (class 2A, Super 4!!)
5) Need to get my business up and running
6) Go on a well deserved vacation...to Europe and/or NZ
7) Wardrobe makeover
8) Get Class 3 license
9) Get into NTU NIE P.E Dept (i wanna be a P.E teacher)
10) Get a part-time girlfriend
11) Get a full-time girlfriend
12) Make money with friends
13) Help friends make more money
14) Attend "the course"
15) Teach "the course" to students
16) Be rich
17) Be famous
18) Meet new friends
19) Meet great new friends
20) Meet HOT new female friends
21) Meet nerds
22) Get a new computer
23) Close down my MySpace account (its just stupid)
24) Make out in a car (haha)
25) Go on an extreme shopping spree
26) Clean up my messy room
27) Clean up my messy desk
28) Buy a bunny a.k.a a rabbit for my mom (she loves rabbits)
29) Buy a car and lastly....
30) At least get 90% of new year resolutions true. (:

All and all, the author of "http://thepine-apple.blogspot.com/" or should i merely say, ME, would like to wish all readers, haters, lovers, scandal-ers, friends and families a HAPPY HAPPY VERY HAPPY 2009. Hopefully, the world doesnt end yet. I've got so much to live for. And so do you. Right?

Ahh.. YES it is.

Yours I'm,
Bil

2008-12-30T14:18:00.002+08:00

"There's no need to complicate, our time is short."

Jason Mraz's "I'm Yours" has got to be my FAVOURITE song of all time anytime. Whenever i feel low and whatever shit, i listen to it and it certainly puts a smile on my face. A really really feel good song i would say.

Come on sing it with me!

I'm yours,
Bil

2008-12-29T11:53:00.002+08:00

"Merry New Year."

Nothing much really happened Christmas Eve or Christmas Day itself. Anyways, now that that day is gone by, i'm pretty much looking forward to New Year's day. But seriously, i have no plans yet or so. Well, i did have some invites by my groups of friends but which one to choose? Spoilt for choice i am.

I'm hungry now. I've had 2 breakfast already since 0700H today up till now, 1200H. Good, it about time my see-food diet kicks in once again. Beginning to feel skinny with all the work load and such.

Hit me heart,
Bil

2008-12-28T15:22:00.003+08:00

"Pauper living"

I'm living what the malays say "Kais pagi, makan pagi. Kais petang, makan petang." or something in that line. I'm living like a pauper now. Struggling to meet ends meet let alone basic necessities like food and water and petrol.

Work, i have but apparently, their pay days are on the 25th and 18th. And thats not good news considering the fact that i have almost nothing in my wallet now except my CashCard, a US$5 bill and my ATM card which i rather not have it. Those were my M1. Liquid Cash. And i've got a bike instalment to pay on the 12th next month, it just keeps getting better. I know.

I know things will turn out for the better. Cause come Jan at least i will start my part-time job proper. ORDing 2 months before you could hold onto a stable job isnt really a good deal i realised and within a month, many shiete things can really happen. But what i'm looking forward to is March next year. Cause when that month comes, i'll be very very happy. I just know it. Coupled with my Birthday, it'll be the best birthday present that i could have ever given myself. I am certain about it.

~~~

There are so many great movies coming out this month and early next year. *sigh* But of course, i wont be so stupid and go spend my money on those cheap short term thrills. Cause i have a long term plan and it doesnt matter if i miss out on these short term stuffs. I know, when i hit my long term goal, i'll be buying those movies off the shelfs of HMV. No problems about that.

I'd rather be a pauper for awhile and be rich for the rest of my life, than to live just like any ordinary people out there. Always happy with life but frustrated, wishing that they could BE SOMEONE better. My time will come.

Just you wait.

If you want to succeed, learn from those who have,
Bil

2008-12-27T13:47:00.002+08:00

"Happy endings only appear at the end."

http://whyisitsohardtochange.blogspot.com/

2008-12-26T14:22:00.002+08:00

"Framed just like Sirius Black."

Typical me. Being uber friendly and random going around blog surfing looking for cool layouts and interesting post galore. Usually when they have interesting reads and such i'd tag them on their tag board and such, but no stupid spams or vulgarities or indecent proposals cause thats just not the way i am. Furthermore, its stupid if i wanted to do SUCH a thing and put up my link to my blog here as well. But for the record, i dont do stupid infantile stuffs.

Well, lately, i chanced upon this blog and tagged and linked up my blog address as well. Cause usually people will ask me for link here, link there link everywhere. Thing is now, someone, apparently some sick bastard, used my tag name and link and said bad dirty STUPID things. Its ruined. My reputation is ruined. Someone framed me like the Ministry Of Magic framed Sirius Black.

By the way, if anyone of you who has read that blog post and came here via "the link" then you really gotta question yourself first if whatever you might be going to do is the right thing to do. Cause ultimately, you're hitting on the wrong man.

"Reputation, takes a lifetime to build and seconds to destroy." - From the movie, Stardust

Innocent,
Bil

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